“Ten four Delta, your customer called back.”
My car died. Well not actually. But it did in the middle of Wadsworth while on my way to work on Tuesday. I had to pull over into the parking lot of an apartment complex and Nicole had to come and get me. I was forty five minutes late to work because of that debacle. My car is being fixed as we speak (hopefully).
Also, I’m supposed to get new tires. The ones I have are hardly effective in the snow here. I remember a day last year where I nearly rear-ended someone because my tires failed to grip the slushy white stuff. That almost ruined my Valentines Day!!!
LOLrissa has been taking me to work. I’ve been here since 6:45 and slowly (but surely) I’m getting tired. Time for more caffeine!
I’ve been reviewing the work of some new employees and my eyes feel like they’re about ready to fall out of my head. I hate having to review anything, especially because of Student X (see previous post).
I printed out a bunch of my poetry last night. I found a really great little picture to put on the front of these little books I’m making for people. Cheesy I know, and a bit self- righteous, but really, people have been bugging me for quite some time so I figured I would surprise them with a teeny book of poetry for Christmas. I made one for Mark last year and I think he liked it.
Speaking of… wow what a situation this has become. I’ve felt all out of sorts since our fight so I’ve been trying to make up with him but he’s just not having it. Random text messages indicate the norm: that he’s thinking of me just like so many others. Laugh Out Loud. But really it’s getting ridiculous. There are a few people on this planet that need to forget they ever knew me. I am dead to them. They know who they are. Granted no one reads this blog so saying these things here is fruitless but all the same, I like to get it off my chest. I like to pretend a lot of the time. I pretend that I’m standing face to face with one of these people and then I say out loud what I would really like to say to them. It’s very relieving but at the same point in time, it hurts. I don’t want to be mean them. I don’t want to make them hurt, even though they’ve made me hurt. That’s just not the way I’m wired. Sure I’ll say things, but I immediately regret them when I think of how the person feels. Sometimes I think I really am a bad person. Sometimes I wonder… I wonder how much like my father I really am…
But back to Mark. Well not for long. He told me yesterday that he doesn’t know me. That hurt. See, more hurt. I wish I had no feelings, you know? I really wish I had a different heart. I wish the stupid thing didn’t always open up for people so easily, so quickly. It’s bullshit really. Laughing out loud.
I stole a sip of Ryan’s Red Bull. Laughing (really hard) out loud. He’s jealous of my Devo cd. He wishes he had one too. : D
Breaking News:
-----Original Message-----
From: Ryan
Sent: Thursday, December 13, 2007 10:42 AM
To: Jennifer Lynn
Subject: :(
R.I.P. Jewbaru.
Wow. Am I sad? A little bit. I certainly feel his pain. Poor guy. I'll pray and chant for him to get a new car quickly.... a prayer to ease his stress.... a chant for his over all wellbeing. God I'm so nice.
