Wednesday, September 5, 2007

jen= super hard sudoku puzzle or what?



Within the past hour I've been told that I'm weird and that I don't make sense.

Let me clarify because that sounds really bad as I re-read that in my head.

There is this guy, let's call him Douche Bag #1. So one day after class he asks me if I might want to get together outside of class to study or whatevs and me being the moron I am say, "Yeah, sure!". We exchange numbers and as I'm stuffing his into my backpack (which I have yet to remove) he asks, "Are you single?". What should I have said? Because apparently me saying yes was somehow indicating to him that I want to fuck him or something. Anyway, he asked me after class last Thursday what my weekend was like and I advised him I was pretty busy. He said he would call me on Friday to see if I wanted to hang out. I thought to myself, why would I want to study on a Friday? Umm yeah. I'm a little dense when it comes to dudes. Anyway, on Tuesday I sat in the back of the class. Why this matters I don't know but again, APPARENTLY it indicated something to Douche Bag #1. Also, when he called me on Friday I didn't answer. I kind of figured out what was going on at this point. I actually missed his call, I just neglected to call him back. You're a very lucky individual if I call you back or answer when you call. I am not a phone person at all. Jesus this is turning into my life story...

so I get this text from this dude saying something along the lines of:

You changed seats, you didn't answer when I called, you ran out of class, what is up? I was convinced you actually wanted to hang out. Whatever.

I mean I think I got it. I think that's more or less what he said. I responded with:

I didn't mean to give you the wrong impression, I'm not interested in seeing anyone right now.

His response:

You should have just said so. Weird. Whatever.

Am I the only one confused about this? I mean seriously! Because I was nice to him and we had some good conversations about dark matter and stars colliding but other than that, I never acted the least bit interested in him. Because I never fucking was!

Then...

I was told I don't make sense by someone I was chatting with via one of those instant messenger thingies. Of course it's hard to add inflection of any kind unless you use one of those ridiculous smiley faces or some of that crazy "netiquette" (e.g. LOL, JK, etc) but I thought I was making sense!

He said something about enjoying spooning with a dude, a total joke of course, to which I replied, "I wouldn't put it past you." I think that's where he got lost. Because right after that he sent a stupid ? which doesn't do shit as far as effectively communicating is concerned. All I can assume is that he didn't get something I just said. Or he doesn't agree. Or he's saying "why?" So I don't know. Maybe the joke only makes sense to me. I was burning him. I was saying "I wouldn't put enjoying spooning with a dude past you." As in it doesn't surprise me that he might take pleasure in that. But it was all a joke of course, and I indicated so by typing: JK LOL. I tried to ask him why he was confused and then figured ah fuck it. It's no use anymore with him. I don't need to clarify further. I don't need to explain or justify or assure. Nope. Not my problem.

In other bullshit news...

I bought some crappy short cigarettes yesterday and I'm hating them.

I made a friend in my English class. The teacher did that thing again. You know, where she hops up on the FUCKING desk in a SKIRT for all the world to see her underwear. I don't know what is wrong with that woman but in addition to "Skirt Affair- The Sequel" she was mispronouncing words all over the place!

I have to write a profile on a place or person or event for that class. Jennifer (my new friend ^_^) and I decided we're just going to bullshit our way through it. But I decided my topic: Chipotle. There's a lot going on in that place, esp. around lunch time. I have to interview a few people so I figured I would make Paul come with me and talk to them on my behalf. I'm going to write down what they say in Spanish and then obviously the English translation as well. I'm going to open and close the essay with sentences in Spanish.

I remembered a bunch of stuff from math today. I love it pretty hard. I can't wait for an actual class.

Nicole and Rikki made up. Yay!

I got a tour of the floor where we're moving (work). It's pretty nice. Still work.

Astronomy is going well except for Douche Bag #1. I have my first exam in Western Civ on Monday. yikes.

Brand New is coming. I already got my tickets. ^_^

The Weakerthans are coming as well. Tickets are on their way... ^_^

Time for bed.

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