Tuesday, May 22, 2012

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New car is good and nice - not the MDX I wanted but it's still good.  :)

Back to work and bored as ever.  I just sat here for probably fifiteen minutes zoning out.  So I decided to post something. 

I made these delicious little jalepeno and cheese wontons last night.  Spicy!  I ate them at 10:30 so they're burning my stomach a bit today... next time I'll use less jalepenos or ensure I bring some Tums. 

That creeper at work didn't miss a fucking beat.  Texted yesterday, IMed this morning.  I told Alex that I already have a creeper and while he was surprised that it happened already, he wasn't surprised at all that it happened.  I think he and I will be facilitating "public services" tomorrow.  *wink wink*

______ is in a good mood today.  I want so badly to go talk to him but I have nothing to say.  I'd like to find out what it is he and Haley talk about when she's over there.  Maybe I can learn something and find some random reason to strike up a convo with him.  I thought about nothing else all weekend but him - that's a bit of an exaggeration when you think of my car issues but still... a lot of my brain power was spent thinking about that gorgeous smile he shot me on Friday, the laugh he let out, and his sexiness as a whole.  Like seriously it's getting to the point where I need to start thinking of some other dude so I don't fixate on him to the point of becoming a creeper myself.  Hence the "public service".  There's no fucking way in hell that exquisite creature would ever be interested in me.  Damn!  I could seriously drone on all damn day just about him.  I could prose the fuck out of my blog and stream-of-consciousness all over it's face for the ulitmate ______ money shot! 

Kirsten and I are officially no longer friends.  It's not necessarily that I did anything or that she did anything.  Someone thinks I want to fuck her.  Someone has clearly never met me for if they had they would know what a boy crazy mess I am.  Believe me, times have gotten tough to the point of me considering going the way of the vag but I just can't!  It bothers me, yes, very much, that I have lost her because someone thinks I look at her a certain way.  "Look", I want to say, "just because you were married and then found out you like pussy doesn't mean we're all one Kirsten away from playing for the other side.  I mean for fuck's sake!  I could dry hump _______ every time he walks by!  And that's someone I know nothing about except that he lives alone by DU, drives some kind of Audi, and is retardedly sexy.  But whatever, I can't force people to be comfortable with my presence in their lives.  It's just stupid that they're even moving into my apartments.  Like why?  When you're not letting me be friends with her?  Whatever.  The more I think about it, the more pissed I'm getting at someone.  All I have to say is congratufuckinglations for destroying yet another one of her friendships!

There are a couple of dudes who work at my dad's shop who are pretty hot.  Nothing compared to ______ but attractive enough to deter my thoughts from ______ to them.  One I've never spoken to.  The other is pretty cool.  He has good taste in music and is 28 but he has an 8 year old and a baby mama so who knows what his availability is.  Really I just need Alex to pop over and provide that service like ASAP otherwise I don't know what I'll do.  Seriously.  My attraction to ________ is getting a little out of control....

Maybe I should go take my lunch...

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