I am getting ready to register for a class for summer. I was dead set on taking Western Civilization because I always rock at History but the online course is full. So my other options are:
Math- absolutely not. The Asshole was going to help me but now that he’s out of the picture I’m kind of stuck. I like math, but it’s hard for me to get on the first try. I need someone to re-explain it to me in a way that makes sense and Dan was so good at that… but whatever. I’ll probably have to break down and get a tutor or something.
English- Oh man I am going to try my hardest to put this off. I love English! I love writing! I LOVE reading! But there is nothing that I hate more than being told how to write. It’s difficult because then the rules and regulations seep over into my personal writing which then becomes non- existent because I can’t make my words fit the form (i.e. thesis statements, etc, etc).
Science- I can’t really do this one because of the labs. I doubt they even offer any online science classes for that very reason. But I love science more than anything which is why Physics is my major! ^_^
Psychology- This is pretty much my only option. I mean sure there are a slew of electives but I’m going to wait to take those when I transfer to a four year school (I was initially planning on going to DU but they don’t accept financial aid. So I’ve decided on CU Boulder. Boulder = gross. I don’t care for the riots surrounding football).
I still have to take the computer placement tests which are what I was trying hard to avoid because they want $10 a test and there are three of them. Money definitely doesn’t grow like the Creature’s finger nails. I’m just going to have to buckle down and budget better (even more so than I already am).
A friend of mine here at work, lets call him Mike, has been really withdrawn lately. The click of girls he talks to are becoming increasingly worried about his constantly changing moods. He is going through a nasty custody battle with The Bitch from Hell so I imagine that it has something to do with that. Problem is, he normally talks to us about it but recently he has completely shut himself off from us. I can’t think of how hard and scary it would be to have to try to work your problems out on your own. I need to talk things out with friends, and then go through the motions of finding the best possible solution. Two minds are definitely better than one with regards to those kinds of things. But he just won’t open up. I even sent him a text last night which I thought he might find funny. He and I are very much a like and we share the same exact sense of humor. I find the word “slit” absolutely disgusting so I sent him a quick message about it. I started it off by saying, “This is really random but…”. His response to my hilarity? “Very random”. Wow way to put forth effort on that one! It’s just not like him to send such a dry, boring response. I don’t know what to do to get him to talk. I guess we’ll all just have to wait until he’s ready.
Day Seven of the break up is going ok. I haven’t cried at all today. I almost re-thought yesterday’s post, the one that has the list of all of the things that I hate about him. I felt that I may have been too harsh. Then I remembered that no one reads this thing and even if they do, they should understand that everything that was said, even though true, was out of anger. I’m hurt damn it! My ego is bruised and my heart has been crushed. What else should I do? Sit here and cry my little eyes out? No. I refuse to be weak. Well I guess attacking someone in such a fashion is still weak but in a different way. To be honest I still have strong feelings for him and the rejection that I’m getting is pretty hurtful. On another note, I am tempted to send him an email saying that I won’t be reading his blog. I would hate to prevent him from spilling his guts if he needs to. But I know he won’t do it if he thinks I’m reading. But maybe I won’t. Maybe I’ll just leave it.
My dad was over at my house today to let the cable dude in. Yay I have cable!!! ^_^ Apparently he cleaned my carpets and washed my baseboards and stuff. I wanted to ask him if he suddenly turned into my mom. Those are totally things she would do. I have to admit that it is really nice having parents around. They are always there to pick you up when you crash and burn. Even if you think they hate you. I’ve had this weird thought in my head that my dad is ashamed of me and the choices I’ve made which is a big reason as to why I want to graduate from college. But I also want to do that for myself.
**Final Thought**
Ryan the Temp is hot.
